The Me I Am.

I know that I'm not the most horrible person in the world (Though there may be some who would disagree), and I know that no one person is perfect, but I can't help noticing that I am not the person that I want Me to be. There tend to be so many things that I loath about myself, that it would almost be impossible to list them here...almost.

• I am very, very, very lazy. When I have time to do so many things like, reading a book or learn piano or climbing a mountain, I instead decide to take a long siesta or sit and watch countless episodes of Boy Meets World and Doctor Who.
• Lack of self confidence. Hence this lovely blog entry.
• I Love to Procrastinate.When there is homework to be done, it is not. Or at least not until the night before. I've become better now that I am in collage, but, well...refer back to the first bullet.
• My health is rubbish. Therefore, my body is rubbish, or so I think. I am not excessively unhealthy but you won't see me running or doing many strenuous activities. This normal American lifestyle has given me a lovely, soft, and pudgy lump on my tummy and has done no good for any of my joints. All of them POP like crazy, especially my neck and back. Just a twist or two and I sound like a child who has just discovered the wonders of bubble wrap.
• I have psoriasis. Here's a link.http://www.webmd.com/skin-problems-and-treatments/psoriasis/understanding-psoriasis-basics Look it up. Now this one is less fixable, but it contributes to bullet 2.
• I don't like to confront people. If I ever want to go on a date or just make a new friend, they have to be the instigators.  I love people, but they terrify me. I care very much about what they think of me and there and then I know that they won't like me just because I am, well, Me.
• I am mediocre in all things. I have never been exceptionally great at anything, just average. Who likes average? No one.
• My spirituality is lacking. I love my church and believe in all of it's teachings, but for some completely idiotic reason, I don't live each of it's standards. Mental.
•  Lastly but certainly not least, I'm Mental.

I could probably go on until my fingers fell off and the readers eyes began to bleed, but I don't want ot seem too self loathing. Because I'm not. I know that I have (many, many) flaws, but I also know that I have many streagths. I just have trouble bringing those strengths out when all of these flaws keep blocking them and making them seem so insignificant.

Why am I telling the WWW this, do you ask? Why does anyone care whether or not I like myself? Well they probably don't and there are much worse things on the internet, but I mostly decided to share this because maybe, just maybe, I can look, comprehend, and find some way to push past and dash away from the person I am, and run strait into the arms of the person I wish I could be.

Boy Meets World

I have recently rediscovered this amazing television show from my childhood. This show was so amazing and as I rewatch it now, I am reminded of all the moral good that this show did for my generation. To bad we seem to have forgotten all of those little life lessons that Cory, Fenny,and Tapanga taught us. Here is a piece of one of the very first episodes that will maybe help people remember what the word respect means.  

The reason I love this 11 year old's rant, is because of how predjudice the world still is today, especially towards those of my religion. I am a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latterday Saints. A Mormon. I am so tired of people hating me or being angry with me just because I believe in something different than they do. I wish everyone would get to know not only my religion better, but also get to know me, before they decide to throw accusations of hate at me, when really they are the ones doing the hating. Respect. That is all I am asking for. Some Fetching Respect. LOVE YOU! :D

The Pure Love of Google Docs

           For my first real blog, I just want to say how much I LOVE Goole Docs. I have recently started collage and google docs has been such a huge help. With almost every group assignment, we have to write a group summary about what we did. With Google Docs, I can be at home, in my pajamas, Snuggie or birthday suit, and finsh my part of the assignment while having a conversation with a class mate also working on the assignment. The conveinence is truely beautiful.

         


             Before I began taking my IT class, Which I just started this semester, I had no idea what the terms "cloud computing" and "share your document" ment. Now, because of this wonderfully difficult class, I am able to  do all sorts of technilogically involved things and understand why I am doing it! Maybe now i will acctually have decent enough grades so that if ( yes i mean if) i move onto university, i could quite possibly be able to pay for it! :D Doesn't that just make you want to dance!? Me too!

Thank you LDS Buisness Collage for inspiring me to begin to attempt to find out how to somewhat know what i need to do in order to fully enhance my abilities to do my best! You rock!

Me.

Just so you know, I only sang this song because it was Acapella. I really do need a man.

 Now that we are properly aquanted, lets get to know each other more. :)